All the feels

I have been working at the job of my dreams for the last ten years and it is ending. It has been ending in a slow way for the last year and now it is really ending and I don't exactly know what to do about it...

I am qualified. I know I can find a job. But...I am spoiled. I grown in a position over the last decade where I can come and go when I please. I have incredible sounding boards and guidance from the leaders within the company but I have autonomy and I am empowered. I work from home on Fridays so I can take some time for myself and I can be there for my boys. I get paid a lot of money and I get big bonuses.

I don't know that there is a replacement job out there that offers me nearly as much of these things as I have become accustomed and it scares me. When I think about what I want for the next 10 years, I want all of this and more and I am not entirely sure if I have to set out on my own to find it.

So, the questions I am asking myself are, Can I do it? Am I entrepreneurial enough? Am I smart enough? Is this the right time?

In the absence of real answers, I have been looking for a job and it is terrible. Gut wrenching. Not since high school graduation have I thought this deeply and this hard, can I please go back in time.